I love living!

At least, I’m trying to love it.  Lately I feel as though the moments have hardly existed; they’ve just started, and ended, and were gone.

You know that song by Relient K, This Week the Trend?

Because I know that I don’t want to die
Sitting around watching my life go by

I really love this guy, Matty T.  Sometimes I think that maybe we have led the same life, because so many of his lyrics reflect my exact feelings.

Yesterday was not quite what it could have been
As with most of all the days before
But I swear today, with every breath I’m breathing in
I’ll be trying to make it so much more

Cause I seem to get so hung-up on
The history of what’s gone wrong
That the hope of a new day is sometimes hard to see
But I’m finally catching onto it
Yeah, the past is just a conduit
And the life there at the end is where I’ll be

I think I’ve deemed this my life song.  Do those exist?  This is mine.  Uhh, preferably the acoustic version.

 

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I’ve been wishing lately that I had more room in my heart for people.  More room in my life.  It’s so difficult for me to have more than a few close friends at a time..and lately I have been feeling that there is no way I can love on everyone as much as I want to.  It’s something I’m dying to work on. I think I need to be stretching myself.  Without forsaking the close friends I already have.  No “find another friend and discard” for me.  But maybe if I try to be a wonderful friend to all of my friends, and not just the ones I love the most, I will become a better friend to the others.

Shout-out to Jenai: a special place in my heart exists just for you.  No one’s touching that space!  Your name is on the door and there are Rat Pack and Venice posters on the walls.  You’re kind of elevated above friend-status…you are my sister.  End of story.  You are indescribable and wonderful and I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.  <3

 

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My roommate Arri and I had lunch with my aunt and cousins today.  Their house makes even El Cajon seem like a beautiful place.  They make me feel at home!

 

This is my cousin Daniel…he’s 10, and definitely the best 10-year-old in the world.  I have a feeling we’re best friends for life.

 

Turning off their street on the way back to school.  Thank you for the beautiful day!